陌生 Strange

忽然之间，
感觉对你很陌生。
原以为我还蛮了解你的。
原来我错了。
对你有中莫名的陌生。
就好像要重新认识过另一个人这样。

如果有得选择，
我会选择以前你的。
至少，
我觉得那时的你还蛮可爱，蛮特别的。
还对你产生了朋友之间的好感。

或许你从来没在我面前表露过真正的你吧！
所以我才没办法接受真正的你。
如果不是从“它”中知道关于你的事。
我想我到现在还觉得你是像我想象中那样。

或许我应该像重新认识一个新朋友这样，
慢慢地了解你。
心情蛮困扰的。
不知道要怎样接受真正现在的你。
我会尝试去接受吧！
毕竟你曾经是我觉得蛮特别，蛮可爱的朋友。

-完毕-

"三头不到岸"

Many thing came to my mind suddenly.
One of the thing which pull me down was...
I had made decision to go for the audition today( sat--30 October).
But due to video shooting for Creative Stratefy for Advertising,
I m unable to attend..
I felt disappointed because I gave up the chance which can fulfill my dream again.
This is nt the first time I gave up due to some reason.

The first time I gave up was because my assignment last semester.
I had presentation on that day,
so I m unable to hold the character.

The second time was my friend-Gabbie's musical theater.
I promised that I can come for the audition and involve to the musical theater.
But when the coming of the audition,
I m working on that day.
After that,
She was tried to put me in the musical theater,
but due to I m having short semester
and the practical will be held almost everyday at UM.
so...
I need to gave up the chance again.

The third chance is tmr audition.
I tot I can't attend because I need to involve in video shooting.
But due to some reason,
I do not need to do so.
But it is already late and there have no bus ticket or ktm ticket for me to go for audition.
I really hope that I can fulfill my dream.
I m not hope that I can become a famous actress.
I just hope that I have the chance to involve in drama or musical theater.
Although it is just a small character.
But as long as I can get the experience, den it is ok for me.

My mood become so down not just only because of this.
Many thing mix together and came into my mind.
and..
I m trying do not want to think anymore.
Yea, the thing which Jess told me...I m agree with her.
"Think so much better think of assignment"
I should put all my effort in my assignment
and
it will make me do not think so much.

R.I.P to my dear friend -Wai Lon

Get bad news from my friend today.
One of my kuantan close friend was pass away because of commit suicide.

My heart really feel uncomfortable...
I still can't accept that u r leave us so young.
My tear keep drop and I had trying to control myself.
Why did u so silly and do the thing which will hurt the ppl beside u?


Although we r not know each other so long...
but we started become closer after Redang trip.
I will keep the picture we took together forever.
Rest In peace, Wai lon.

To all my friend, please appreciate yr life and face it toughly. Do not try to do something hurt the ppl beside u and dun try to commit suicide no matter what happen in yr life.

Forward msj from my friend.

Forward msj from my friend in facebook....
Feel tat,
it is so meaningful...so share it out....

2010年，
我们今年22岁，
我们所做的一切，
为的只是隐藏起自己的脆弱，
即使很难过，
也会装的无所谓，
只是不愿别人看见自己的伤口，
不想让自己周围的人担心，
不想让别人同情自己，
只想在心底独自承受，
虽然心疼的难以呼吸，
却笑着告诉所有人“我没事的！”
然后静下来时，
自己便笑话自己，
何必把自己伪装的那么坚强.!

说不出的感觉。。。。。。

Although I did enjoy my life recently....
But duno why...
Just now after yc with Darren, Jess, Alvin, Wai kit and Kent...
My heart feel unsecure and feel a bit emo..
But I failed to find the reason.
I keep thinking and thinking...
But...

still like that....

Erm, maybe I will get the answer soon...
By the way,
I really hope that what I have now...
will keep longer and would not change.
Once I appreciate someone...
Those people will stay in my heart forever...
I really appreciate my gang now..
Yong Ren, Ah peng, Jess, Darren, Wai kit, Guang Zhen, Kee, Kent...
I duno whether u all will appreciate our friendship..
But I can say that..
I really very care of u all..
I love u all...
Hope we really can maintain our friendship until the last.
I m cried,
coz i know that we will break one day..
maybe after graduate...
But just tro do not think too much.
Just enjoy and appreciate what I have.
This is the reason why I love to capture picture..
because..
I want to keep my memory in my heart and mind forever...

Photo shooting day...

I m really enjoy this few day...
Go out with few member of RTP gang (aka R3mix Talking Pasar gang) .
We went for photo shooting last Thursday (19 August).
But, so bad that...it is a raining day
and
we are unable to start our photo shooting.
Just simply take some normal shooting picture at new town.
Everyone also enjoy the photo shooting
and
We had done some silly and crazy thing tat day...=p
This is first time my friend - Darren Koh join our gang,
hope he really enjoy the photo shooting^^

Moral Campaign+Advertising copy Writing

My lovely group member and my tutor, Mr.Subramaniam. But, one of my group member, Aravin go back already...so didnt take picture with him...

My classmate which same Advertising copy Writing tutorial with me. Croix and Kuan Pei.

3 of us...Kee(aka Cicak Man), Jenny, Wai Kit(aka Freeman)

痛苦的日子终于过了！
虽然上个星期和这个星期都超忙的，
可是，我终于熬过了,yeah....
星期二那天整夜没睡，
一整天就是上课还有赶assignment...
超累的.....
第一次28小时没睡过....连休息的时间都没有。T_T 痛苦下。

星期三9.30am-11am是我的AV Copy Writing presentation+assignment.
顺顺利利地过了presentation,
和我的组员拍了一些照片。
现在忽然蛮想念我们一起赶assignment的日子，
哈哈！
一起去Tesco“扫货”....
去买便宜的菜和面包。
那天去Tesco大多数都是去卖菜部门和面包部门而已。=p
想起那天都觉得还蛮好笑下。

其实和你们合作，我蛮开心的。
至少我做回真正的我。
大家一起做assignment,一起废一起颠，哈哈！
真的蛮开心可以认识你们。
希望我们所努力的，可以得到不错下的成绩吧！
Wai Kit, Kee and Aravin,
以后如果有机会，我们再合作吧！^^

过了Presentation AV copy Writing后，
立刻就要去准备我的moral campaign了。
那天蛮赶蛮累的。
虽然我们的组员只有那么的11个人，
可是Cikgu Muthu 却很满意我们当天的表现^^
我们真的很努力去准备这个campaign.
虽然这只是pass and fail的科目，
可是
我们却很想去做好它。

那天的campaign真的很成功。
每个组员所付出的努力，
终于得到回报了。
我们的3个小组里面，
有其中一组得到小组的满分。^^
而大组的分数， 我们得到了满分。

我没后悔这个sem add moral。。。
通过这个 campaign，
让我学到了很多东西，
也认识了新朋友。
这个campaign也成为了我们的回忆吧！^^

Moral campaign的照片太多了，
如果你们有兴趣，
就去我的facebook看吧！^^

Our 1 year aniversary~

16 July was our 1 year aniversary...
Time pass so fast and we already together for 1 year...
Although we have some argument that night...
but...
Finally...We are fine....
Went to take dinner at Vegas around 10pm.
I m sorry because make yr plan have to rearrange again.
Attach some pic which we took when 16 July...^^

Insomnia again~

A day which pull me down.
Am I so stupid? So easily to feel sad because of my friend and so easily to believe someone?
Is it valuable?
why I m so care about this?
I m keep repeating those question in my brain.
I could not stop it even I m trying to.

Today, it was happen something which I m not really want it happen,
I know that I do not have the qualification to feel sad and to feel angry...
but...
its really make me become emotional.
keep thinking about this matter...
I could not stop you to do so,
but I really hope that I can know the reason you do so.
Although I have the intention to ask you why...
But...
it is useless for me to ask you.
And I do not have the qualification to ask you the reason.

"Stop thinking about it, please! Wong Chen Ni!!!"
I m keep asking myself,
do not think it anymore and try to cheer up myself.
But I m failed to do it...
But at least after I chatted with my dear Jess, Karen, Waltz and Kang Yong..
I felt better compare to just now...

The question keep appear in my mind and this is the cause of make me become insomnia.
I hope I will be fine soon...
U can do it,
Jenny.

Start to fall in love in a song called Forever Love which sing by Gary Barlow...
This song had accompany me whole night when I m sad.

^^

忽然觉得这个sem很沉重。
从下个星期开始，每个星期都有assignment要交或有presentation.
Week 9 和 week 1o是我最忙的一个星期吧！
Mid term, presentation, assignment....唉！
开始有点后悔add moral了，在犹豫着自己到底能不能挨过这个学期。
在跟我同batch的coursemate之中，
应该只是我一个有那个勇气add多一科subject吧？
有时真的很佩服自己的勇气。
我有不好的预感，我肯定过不了这个学期.......T_T
为什么我总是对自己没信心?
唉！

别去想assignment了。
嗯，最近我蛮开心的，
可以做我自己喜欢的事，
认识了一些新朋友^^
生活还算ok吧！
希望我所拥有的一切，
会继续维持下去。
不会再尝试那种， “得到后又失去”的感觉。

我也开始和Alvin 的housemate和Ah Jing比较close 了。
经常一起去138喝茶。
记得我们的新口头谈-“我真的接受唔到咯！”
哈哈！傻傻的~

Karen, 我们应该算是认识了有一段时间吧！
说真的，认识你，我蛮开心的。
我们算是一拍即和吧！
之前只是和你msn而已，
可是我们都算蛮close了，蛮多话题谈的，哈哈！
希望我们能继续这样的好朋友关系吧！

Kee, 嗯，认识你应该不到2个星期，
虽然一时你很爱作弄我，
还有蛮自恋一下，
可是你算是个蛮关心我的朋友。^^
可以感觉得到，你是用真心对待你的朋友的。

Tsern Yii,
那天我去拿balloon时，
才正式认识你的吧！之前比较少和你在msn和facebook聊天。
还好你有主动和我打招呼，
要不然我真的认不出那个是你，哈哈！
嗯，觉得你是个玩得的朋友，算蛮好谈的吧！呵呵！

Xing Wei, 我们时常都有在msn聊。
蛮意外你会认得我。
觉得你的人还蛮不错^^
我觉得应该是那个balloon让我们正式认识对方。
如果不是你当晚叫我去拿balloon,我想我应该不会去咯！
因为要特地派队去拿balloon，哈哈！lazy~
哈哈！

Jess, Ah Peng, Yong Ren - my ji mui in pr course.
We really vy siao and funny sometimes...
Hope we can coo-operate well in Crisis management assignment and Thoeries Role ba.
I hope we really can maintain our friendship...
really really...I really appreciate u all.
I can being myself when together with u all...
Lastly,
I love u all...muacks...haha..

Friendship Forever....my lovely friend.....
muacks muacks...^^

A letter for my buddies - Feeling ~

Still rmb tat we made cookies together in yr house? haha...

the pic we took when we work as digi promoter...^^

In voon shin house i think...

Sweet~

Had a nice conversation with my buddies in Kuantan called Fong Ping aka Feeling... Miss our memory last time, We always travel, shopping or even crazy together.
Still remember some our friend told us before - When we r together, we will become "not real J3nny and not real F33ling.."
haha....
We will become sot and keep laugh non stop...even one small thing, we also can laugh until siao...
but when we r not together,
we will come back to normal..

Sometimes we will quarrel, sometimes we will unsatisfied with each other,
but...
we will tell each other and try 2 improve our bad attitude.
This is call friend...
We will not ignore each other because of this matter. ^^

Even though we are not always can meet,
or hang out together.
but our friendship will stay longer and never end.
I will appreciate our friendship...
I love you, my darling~ hahahahaha...
Muackss....muackss...=p
( I think I should improve my broken english....) =p
Attach with some pic we took b4...^^

回忆

又睡不着了......
每天到这个时候，我总是睡不着。
明天10点的课啊！拜托快点让我睡觉吧！
不知怎么了，脑子一直想很多东西。
真的不想再去想了，可是还是不成功！

我知道我还是放不下他们。
虽然现在我们只是普通朋友，
没以前这么close了。。。。。。
可是我经常都会想起以前的日子。
认识你们，
我真的很开心很开心。。。。。
我也不知什么原因，
我们就像陌生人一样，
没有共同的话题了。
一时会觉得，
我会不会很傻？
去在乎那些不在乎你的朋友。
可是我就是这样啊！改不了。。。。。。
就是很重视他们，
真的很想念和他们一起疯，一起开心和一起傻的日子。

I had try my best to find topic chat with you all,
but....still unsuccessful,
I know,
You all are not care me anymore.
I know,
it is hard 2 ask me to forget u all,
u all had gave me a lot of sweet memory in my Utar life when y1s1.
I know,
I m not important for u all....
But I still hope that we r still friend.
If god promise to give me a wish, I wish tat, we can become close as before.

I ♥ Redang

on the way go Redang by Ferry.

Vivian, me and Vicki...3 leng lui...haha.

Me, Kenki and Fong Nian..

Vicki and me.

Wei sam, me, Shu zhen and jia chen

7 leng lui...haha.

Pulau Redang, A beautiful island in Malaysia.
I went to Redang with my friend on 23, 24, 25 May.
A nice trip for me.
I really enjoy and relax, can forgot all unhappy thing.

The first day, after yc with friend,
I direct online until 3am then start my journey go 2 Redang by bus.
Cant sleep well in the bus
After arrived Redang,
We were started to play, snorkeling and take some nice pic.
This is my first time snorkeling and went to Redang.
I really scare when I m snorkeling at first
But Jia Chen accompany me when I m snorkeling and teach me some technique.
FINALLY
I m dare to snorkeling, yeah.
Thanks to Jia Chen.

Next day, second day in Redang.
A lot of activities tonight....
play mahjong, c blue sand, sing k, yc....

I really hope that I can come here again..with my fren..
I like the sand, the beach, and the scene at here.
I can forgot everything which make me unhappy.
More few day I need to go back kampar to continue my study.
I really dun wan to go back.
Anyway, I very enjoy this holiday.^^
Will keep the memory until the end.