Heart break.......

Friend really important for me...I really appreciate every of my fren...Sometime i will think that am I vy silly? Even though i so care of them...but...they wont care of me...I think if one day i die already..no ppl wil care or sad because of my death except my family. I really try my best 2 improve our friendship...but...is it useful?

Why i so care abt u all...really appreciate our friendship...but...u all nv care abt me? I really so sad u know? I really feel disappointed...my heart so pain so pain...I cry non stop now..mayb u all will think tat why I m so weird...wil cry because of friend...Although myself..i also could not find the answer..I just hope u all can care abt me...Is it difficult?

Nobody know my feeling..nobody really understand how I feel...nobody know how hurt I m..nobody care abt me, my feeling and my death or live...finally i know it...

Unlucky day~

Today is my UAMG 1004 Introduction to Mass Communication(IMC) exam...i didnt sleep whole night because of do revision for tis subject..Yesterday after dinner wiv Alex,lene,Sook Wai, Lay Khoon, Alvin, Kee Siong(a.k.a Kiki), Mee Yen and Ah Mei...i went 2 lene's house do revision wiv them...Careena was expain abt the IMC Theory 2 us...waw...so many thing need 2 memorize...study until siao and crazy...but all i study nt come out in exam...sigh...=.="

Okay,forgive abt it.I m tried 2 do the question,so difficult and really duno how 2 do...haiz...After one hour..suddenly my stomach so pain...I feel wan cry....but cant cry when exam...somemore i need continue my exam..That time really hard 2 pass..I m force myself 2 done the question..but stomach really super pain.I think it is because i took medicine tis morning without eat anything. Di Tok Di tok..I hope time can pass faster. i duno why recently I really unlucky. Last Friday I cant concentrate in my Public Opinion and Persuasion exam because of my toothache. Today I failed 2 concentrate because of stomach, haiz..

Time up, time to pass up my answer paper. I done vy bad in my IMC exam. After my exam, i direct went 2 c dental for my teeth, she asked me come yesterday or today. But unfortunately, the dental on-leave..haiz..need 2 wait next Thursday only can c her. I plan to find another private dental in my hometown or in kampar, I dun wan wait anymore, it is so painful..Alvin fetch me go 2 find the dental clinic in Old town, Kampar...the unlucky thing happen again...

He kena saman because he was drive to one way road...omg..After discount is RM 50..无端端 need 2 pay RM 50..huh~ I feel embarrassed, because I asked him fetch me go 2 old town and make him kena saman..I plan 2 gv him the RM 5o or RM 25...

A painful day for me~

The car cant use anymore....== Luckily my sister and her bf still alive....





Today after I took my English For Mass Communication exam, I went to Poliklinik to see dentist. When I m arrived there, it is already 11.45am. After i register, the dentist started to check my teeth. I feel scare and tension, but no one can help me.

After she checked my teeth, the dentist gave me 2 choices:
1. She tried to pull out the teeth but mayb failed because my toothache yesterday. If she is fail, come 2 see her again after 5 days and she wil give me medicine to decrease the painful of teeth, then only try 2 remove it again.

2. Or she gv me the medicine to decrease painful of teeth directly, then come 2 see her after 5 days.

I hope can pull out my teeth faster, because I do not want to suffer because of my teeth again, haiz. So i choose the first choice. She started to put narcotic near my teeth...after that she started to pull out the teeth...omg...it is so pain and terrible...i almost wan cry in front of the dentist...finally she failed to remove it because it is really so pain and hard to describe, haiz. So she gave me medicine and ask me come again next Thursday.

When i went out fr the room, Alvin asked me wat happen because i nv talk since i went out fr the room. I tried to control my tear, because I really don't want cry in front of ppl....but failed...finally i cried in front of him, told him what happen just now and express my feeling to him. I cant imagine that next week i must go 2 see the dentist again, wu..wu...so cham..I just hope that it will not influence my exam... =.=

I back home and take rest in home and waiting for my dinner. At night, I went to enjoy my dinner with Careena, Alvin, Wei Sing and Chin Peng. After we took our dinner, we went to Tesco and buy something. My mommy called me and inform me, maybe my family cant come 2 kampar to find me because my sister was involved in accident at Kuala Lumpur. Omg..my brain totally cant think and blank...so worry my sister. It is nt a small accident and my sister and her bf almost die in that accident. Luckily they are safe but injured.

I tried to call and sms to my sister and my sister's bf when I m back...but I cant even contact with them...I keep thinking that...what happen with them? Are they ok now?.........
Hopefully ntg happen to them...i love my family...i do not want anything happen to them....god..pls...pls..I love my sister...She is so care of me and love me....I do not want my sister injured or wat...pls...Sister, pls listen my call...ok?

Dont know how 2 express my feeling now...feel wan cry but cant...
Today I really feel upset...haiz...

First paper-Interpersonal Communication(IPC)

Time pass so fast.....

Yesterday was my first exam for this sem. It was nt a good day for me.... Before i started the exam, my heart started "jump"...i really felt tension and stress....This was first time my heart "jump" when i took exam...i nv tried the feeling before. I m tried to calm down myself and keep told myself that i can do it...I had studied all the chapter that hv come out in the exam...hopefully i can rmb all the main point....The time pass so fast and it was already 1pm. My mood really so down and vy scare,because my coursework mark for this subject was failed, 18/40. I did badly in my midterm and it is nt a easy subject...seem vy easy but difficult.

I took lunch wiv Alvin and my mood really vy bad...Stree because of exam and my toothache again...i m worried that i cant concentrate my exam later. Careena and Alvin keep ask me dun be so stress, i can do it! But...the problem is...i m easily forgot everything i had studied b4...and my lazy attitude made me no confident at all.
When i m arrive school, my heart jump again...and my hand full of sweat. This is my first time so tension.... I keep memorize the main point, but..my brain was blank and cant memorize anything. I decided to enter the exam room, D117.

My hand was started shake..Omg...how I took my exam if i continue like this? "Jenny, pls calm down, u can do it"...I m trying to calm dowm by mind-reading. I started to wrote and wrote all the point i rmb....Maybe because i m too tension,i keep write the wrong point and cant rmb the word's spelling. Even a simple word "possible" i also can wrong spell it...haiz..
When i wrote the answer of question 3, I can success wrote the steps, but the elaborate of the steps, i terbalik it already...Omg, i need to wrote it one more time..In section A, the first and the question 4 i will get zero mark, because i m nt enough time 2 finish it,just let it emtpy...haiz..
The essay part....i can rmb the main point, but unluckily, i failed 2 refresh bak when i m studied b4....i failed 2 write relevant point,so i just cincai done it. I really cant imagine that hwo many mark i wil get in my IPC exam....=.=" After my exam, i really feel wan cried, but...i won't cry in front of people except in front of my best friend...i must be tough!!
Hopefully i can pass all my exam...god bless me...

Wednesday is my Intro to Advertising exam...i m gonna to die soon...nv do revision for this subject...really moody recently...haiz...who can help me? I feel sorry 2 my mommy, my sister...they asked me study hard in University, but...i nv do it...
Jenny wong,u r so useless u know?
start to hate myself...my lazy attitude...

Random~

Last Wednesday, Alvin's housemate Wei Sing suggested that we went to Mc.Donald in Gopeng to do revision because of the terrible hot weather in Kampar. After our discussing, we made decision to go there. We started our journey at 11pm and predicted that around 11.20pm will arrived there. After 20 minutes, we are arrived Gopeng, but we failed to find the Mc.Donald, so we tried to ask other people at there. They just asked us to go straight away then we will see a big Mc.Donald at thr. So we go straight....We are wonder that we will missing that day. Alvin drove his car slowly and tried to find the place we want to go.

I made decision to call my fren, Venz and asked him where is the place, because he is come fr Gopeng. He told us that there is no Mc.Donald in Gopeng, but in Medan Gopeng, near ipoh area. So we followed the step he teach. Finally we reached our target place. This is my first time went to Mc.Donald in Medan gopeng,haha. I started to order some food to eat because i hvnt take my dinner. After i took my dinner+ supper, i tried to force myself to study, at least i hv study one chapter at thr( better than no study at all) =p

Yesterday Belinda, Ah "five", Careena and me celebrate CJ's birthday in my house. CJ seem no mood that day. I m wonder that wat happen to him and quite worry abt him. I nv c him like that. I think he is stress because of exam. Haiz. Everyone become stress when exam. I really hate exam.... Sometimes, i will start to think, y we wan to take exam? Is it because of certificate?
Next monday is my first paper in this sem, i cant imagine how i will be that day. =.="

I really vy scare of my exam for Public Opinion and Persuasion( POP). Although i m quite satisfy of my coursework mark for that subject, but i always skip the class for POP.
Furthermore, i totally don't know wat my lecturer teaching and he didnt gv us the exactly tips...haiz.. :".-.":

I dont know y today i no mood at all. Keep thinking my previous memory wiv friend. I really vy appreciate all my friend, but are they all appreciate me too? I don't know.....
I just hope that i can pass happily in my university life, is that difficult to do it?
Jenny, stop thinking nonsense!!!!! Y i wan so care of my friend? Pls stop for so care them la. They wont appreciate wat u hv done for them!!!

Happy day~

Today is last day for this sem(y1s2).

When i finish my class, i m waiting for Mr.Andrew Chong to know my coursework mark for Intro to Mass Comm. I m so happy because my coursework mark for Intro to Mass Comm quite ok, 30.4. Although it is nt the best, but i cant imagine that i can get 30 and above,hehe..
Mr.Andrew said tat he likes our group assignment( magazine created by us-Careena, Melody, Alvin, Susheena and me). We are doing food magazine, so we went to try kampar's delicious food and put our own picture in our magazine.

I really surprise that we get the higher mark in our tutorial, yeah~Although we duno our mark for magazine( Mr.Andrew dun allow us to know), but i really satisfy of it and feel happy. Because he know our effort in complete this magazine.
All our group member also coo-operate done the magazine =p Really vy thanks u all..hehe.. Without u all, i might not success done it. =p