人是最善变的

开始觉得人与人的感情真的很脆弱。
现在跟你close的朋友，不代表以后你们还会维持现在的关系。
或许现在你们很close,
可是难保多几个月，
你们还能保持回这样的关系。
人是最善变的，说变就变，
我早应该知道会演变成这样的啊！
我讨厌这种感觉，
我宁愿我们不曾相识过。
我对于现在的你，
真的很陌生了。
我再也不知道到底你是谁了。。。。。。
以前我认识的你都去了哪里？
永远都找不回了。。。
也找不回以前我们一班人在一起的欢乐时光了。
往事只能回忆。

其实有些事。。。。。。

其实有些事。。。。。。已慢慢变成了习惯。
虽然觉得遗憾，可是努力过了还是一样。。。
也算是对得起自己了吧！
人，总要学会保护自己，别让任何人伤害了你。
或许你说得对，别把感情放得那么重。
到后来，受伤的还是你。

我没有伤心的感觉了，只有无言和无奈的感觉~
相信很快的，我会忘了以前的回忆。
过去了就是过去了，没可能会好像以前这样了。
你要接受这个现实哦!
加油！
别再停留在过去了，忘了以前的回忆~
当想起时，狠狠的咬自己一口，
提醒自己。。。。。。
回想过去只会让自己更痛.......

( Loon, thanks for caring me and love me so much. U r the one who will not hurt me. I know how you treat me and I will appreciate it. ^^
Included all my friend who really care of me, Jess, Peng, Ren, Issac, Karen, Peter.... )

A long long story....

It is been a long time I did not update my blog....

Many thing occur started from this semester...
Friendship problem, education problem, family problem and even relationship problem...
I do hope that all the unhappy thing will pass faster.
I really scare that I cannot handle it anymore.
A lot of my friend asked me :" where is the optimistic Jenny"?
I can't even answer them...I just can laugh and say nothing happen.
This is only part of the challenge I face it in my Uni life...
it is still a long journey to go....
I must know how to handle stress,
how to handle relationship problem and
how to handle my study as well.

I must keep remind myself...
I can handle all those thing...
Thanks for my dear for cheer me up and try to make me happy tonight.
A special thanks for u all,
Yong Ren, Peter Chia, Issac Wan....
A big big hug to u all...
Glad to know u all...


( Grab from istockphoto =p)

陌生 Strange

忽然之间，
感觉对你很陌生。
原以为我还蛮了解你的。
原来我错了。
对你有中莫名的陌生。
就好像要重新认识过另一个人这样。

如果有得选择，
我会选择以前你的。
至少，
我觉得那时的你还蛮可爱，蛮特别的。
还对你产生了朋友之间的好感。

或许你从来没在我面前表露过真正的你吧！
所以我才没办法接受真正的你。
如果不是从“它”中知道关于你的事。
我想我到现在还觉得你是像我想象中那样。

或许我应该像重新认识一个新朋友这样，
慢慢地了解你。
心情蛮困扰的。
不知道要怎样接受真正现在的你。
我会尝试去接受吧！
毕竟你曾经是我觉得蛮特别，蛮可爱的朋友。

-完毕-

"三头不到岸"

Many thing came to my mind suddenly.
One of the thing which pull me down was...
I had made decision to go for the audition today( sat--30 October).
But due to video shooting for Creative Stratefy for Advertising,
I m unable to attend..
I felt disappointed because I gave up the chance which can fulfill my dream again.
This is nt the first time I gave up due to some reason.

The first time I gave up was because my assignment last semester.
I had presentation on that day,
so I m unable to hold the character.

The second time was my friend-Gabbie's musical theater.
I promised that I can come for the audition and involve to the musical theater.
But when the coming of the audition,
I m working on that day.
After that,
She was tried to put me in the musical theater,
but due to I m having short semester
and the practical will be held almost everyday at UM.
so...
I need to gave up the chance again.

The third chance is tmr audition.
I tot I can't attend because I need to involve in video shooting.
But due to some reason,
I do not need to do so.
But it is already late and there have no bus ticket or ktm ticket for me to go for audition.
I really hope that I can fulfill my dream.
I m not hope that I can become a famous actress.
I just hope that I have the chance to involve in drama or musical theater.
Although it is just a small character.
But as long as I can get the experience, den it is ok for me.

My mood become so down not just only because of this.
Many thing mix together and came into my mind.
and..
I m trying do not want to think anymore.
Yea, the thing which Jess told me...I m agree with her.
"Think so much better think of assignment"
I should put all my effort in my assignment
and
it will make me do not think so much.

R.I.P to my dear friend -Wai Lon

Get bad news from my friend today.
One of my kuantan close friend was pass away because of commit suicide.

My heart really feel uncomfortable...
I still can't accept that u r leave us so young.
My tear keep drop and I had trying to control myself.
Why did u so silly and do the thing which will hurt the ppl beside u?


Although we r not know each other so long...
but we started become closer after Redang trip.
I will keep the picture we took together forever.
Rest In peace, Wai lon.

To all my friend, please appreciate yr life and face it toughly. Do not try to do something hurt the ppl beside u and dun try to commit suicide no matter what happen in yr life.

Forward msj from my friend.

Forward msj from my friend in facebook....
Feel tat,
it is so meaningful...so share it out....

2010年，
我们今年22岁，
我们所做的一切，
为的只是隐藏起自己的脆弱，
即使很难过，
也会装的无所谓，
只是不愿别人看见自己的伤口，
不想让自己周围的人担心，
不想让别人同情自己，
只想在心底独自承受，
虽然心疼的难以呼吸，
却笑着告诉所有人“我没事的！”
然后静下来时，
自己便笑话自己，
何必把自己伪装的那么坚强.!